i can fly! at least, i think i can

So, now that my castielfest fic is done, I felt that I could edit my final blindfold_spn fic and repost. I suddenly feel prolific. Don't worry, this trend will drop off soon. Now back to writing my spnrarepairs fic. *facepalm*

Title: these days (the world's getting colder).
Author: MF Luder
Pairing: always-a-girl!Dean/Castiel
Keywords: het, sexswap, angst, PWP, pregnancy, established relationship
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: ~2,400
Warnings: references to drug and alcohol abuse
Spoilers: general season 5
Disclaimer: All characters herein belong to Kripke and Co. and the CW.
Archive: My LJ, anywhere else, please let me know
Summary: If he could, he'd melt into her, get inside her so deep she couldn't ever get rid of him. Despite everything, he'd die a thousand times over if it meant keeping Deanna and their child safe.
Feedback: skin.walker2y5@gmail.com
Author’s Notes: Written for blindfold_spn on the prompt: Dean is pregnant with Castiel's child. She's about halfway through the pregnancy and is absolutely wild with hormones. Castiel can barely keep her satisfied. Originally posted here.
Author's Notes 2: This is part of my always-a-girl!Dean 'verse.  (Sorry, no clever title for it, yet.  Feel free to suggest one.lol) I expect more to be forthcoming at some point, but this is NOT a WIP. Each story will be part of the verse and connected, but a whole entity of its own.  The time-line will not be consistent, but will make sense. Basically, don't expect regular updates, but look forward to more. This fic can be read alone, but it makes more sense if taste of sin. is read first.


( these days (the world's getting colder). )

Title: Shadows Filled Up With Doubt
Author: MF Luder
Recipient: amor_remanet
Pairing: Dean/Castiel, Castiel/OFC, intimated Dean/OFC
Keywords: slash, het, apocalypse, character death, established relationship, alternate universe
Rating: R
Word Count: ~11,600
Warnings: torture, drug use, character death
Spoilers: 5x4, “The End”
Disclaimer: All characters herein belong to Kripke and Co. and the CW.
Archive: My LJ, anywhere else, please let me know
Summary: When Dean begins to torture again, Castiel slowly loses pieces of himself.
Author's Notes: Filling this request: 5.04-verse: established Dean/Cas. Remember in "On the Head of A Pin" when Cas says, "I would give anything for you not to have to do this" about Dean torturing Alastair? After losing his Grace, basically-human!Cas picks up the taste for pain meds, but for the most part, he's sober more often than not. When Dean starts torturing again, it takes its toll on Cas too for castielfest. Title taken from Jace Everett's “Bad Things,” another prompt. And umm, I sorta of included two of your DNWs so I'm hoping you'll forgive me since it is a 5x4 fic. D:
Author’s Notes 2: This is a little twist on 5x4 in that there is no past!Dean. Thus, the ending is a tish different. Make of that as you will. Bastardized a few lines from the show as well.
Author's Notes 3: Finally, the BIGGEST of apologies to the mods and to my recipient amor_remanet for being so incredibly tardy with this.

( Shadows Filled Up With Doubt )

Title: I won’t grieve; it’s not yet time.
Author: MF Luder
Pairing: Dean/Castiel
Keywords: pre-slash, ust, episode coda
Rating: G
Word Count: ~3,400
Warnings: None
Spoilers: 5x22 “Swan Song”
Disclaimer: All characters herein belong to Kripke and Co. and the CW.
Archive: My LJ, anywhere else, please let me know
Summary: Castiel never said goodbye.
Feedback: skin.walker2y5@gmail.com
Author’s Notes: Title stolen from my new fav song “Breathe” by Superchick. Also, this has officially been Kripked by the new casting news, but I have never been so excited to have something tossed out the window as I am now. Betaed by the awesome rhymephile who was very kind to help me in the midst of moving. ♥

( I won't grieve; it's not yet time. )

Title: Assassin
Artist: MF Luder
Pairing: Dean/Castiel
Rating: PG
Size: 1200x800 (wallpaper)
Artist's Note: 2 versions under cut. Couldn't resist the new John Mayer cd.

Castiel was always the dependable one in the garrison, the one most receptive to his superiors commands. That was before he met Dean. He should never have gotten involved, he should have left and let another angel take over Dean's guidance towards his destiny. But Dean wasn't what Castiel was expecting; he certainly didn't expect him to steal his heart.



( Full wallpapers under the cut )

So, according to my tags, the last time I posted a fic was just over a year ago. The last time I posted a Supernatural fic? 2.5 years ago! Well, hell. I'm going to hope this jump starts the muse for my two SPN WIPs (actually, I had started over the summer and then got distracted again). But it might have to wait until Thanksgiving; school's a bitch (God love grad school). Isn't that always the problem, though?

Whatever, I'm excited I wrote something and it's all thanks to Castiel.

Title: Hi, I’m Icarus; I’m Falling
Author: MF Luder
Pairing: Dean/future!Castiel, future!Dean/future!Castiel referred to
Keywords: slash, dub-con, PWP, angst
Warnings: asphyxiation kink, dubious consent (these are both so small I say only those very weak of fanfic heart should worry), drugs
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: 4,443
Spoilers: 5x04, “The End”
Disclaimer: They belong to the CW and all the producers.
Archive: My LJ, anywhere else, just let me know.
Summary: “You are, though. And you’ll never change. If there’s one thing I learned about you, it’s that. You’re a stubborn bastard. Just try not to take me down with you this time. Not to say it hasn’t been fun. Generally.”
Feedback: skin.walker2y5@gmail.com
Author's Notes: I’d had a 5x4 tag in mind. This is not it. This is merely porn. Carry on. Title from Regina Spektor’s song, Lacrimosa. Because I still can’t come up with titles on my own. Big thank you to my beta, rhymephile who was very quick and very good at fixing my awkward phrasing.

Companion fic to Lacrimosa.

( Hi, I'm Icarus; I'm Falling )