i can fly! at least, i think i can

So, now that my castielfest fic is done, I felt that I could edit my final blindfold_spn fic and repost. I suddenly feel prolific. Don't worry, this trend will drop off soon. Now back to writing my spnrarepairs fic. *facepalm*

Title: these days (the world's getting colder).
Author: MF Luder
Pairing: always-a-girl!Dean/Castiel
Keywords: het, sexswap, angst, PWP, pregnancy, established relationship
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: ~2,400
Warnings: references to drug and alcohol abuse
Spoilers: general season 5
Disclaimer: All characters herein belong to Kripke and Co. and the CW.
Archive: My LJ, anywhere else, please let me know
Summary: If he could, he'd melt into her, get inside her so deep she couldn't ever get rid of him. Despite everything, he'd die a thousand times over if it meant keeping Deanna and their child safe.
Feedback: skin.walker2y5@gmail.com
Author’s Notes: Written for blindfold_spn on the prompt: Dean is pregnant with Castiel's child. She's about halfway through the pregnancy and is absolutely wild with hormones. Castiel can barely keep her satisfied. Originally posted here.
Author's Notes 2: This is part of my always-a-girl!Dean 'verse.  (Sorry, no clever title for it, yet.  Feel free to suggest one.lol) I expect more to be forthcoming at some point, but this is NOT a WIP. Each story will be part of the verse and connected, but a whole entity of its own.  The time-line will not be consistent, but will make sense. Basically, don't expect regular updates, but look forward to more. This fic can be read alone, but it makes more sense if taste of sin. is read first.


( these days (the world's getting colder). )

Title: Shadows Filled Up With Doubt
Author: MF Luder
Recipient: amor_remanet
Pairing: Dean/Castiel, Castiel/OFC, intimated Dean/OFC
Keywords: slash, het, apocalypse, character death, established relationship, alternate universe
Rating: R
Word Count: ~11,600
Warnings: torture, drug use, character death
Spoilers: 5x4, “The End”
Disclaimer: All characters herein belong to Kripke and Co. and the CW.
Archive: My LJ, anywhere else, please let me know
Summary: When Dean begins to torture again, Castiel slowly loses pieces of himself.
Author's Notes: Filling this request: 5.04-verse: established Dean/Cas. Remember in "On the Head of A Pin" when Cas says, "I would give anything for you not to have to do this" about Dean torturing Alastair? After losing his Grace, basically-human!Cas picks up the taste for pain meds, but for the most part, he's sober more often than not. When Dean starts torturing again, it takes its toll on Cas too for castielfest. Title taken from Jace Everett's “Bad Things,” another prompt. And umm, I sorta of included two of your DNWs so I'm hoping you'll forgive me since it is a 5x4 fic. D:
Author’s Notes 2: This is a little twist on 5x4 in that there is no past!Dean. Thus, the ending is a tish different. Make of that as you will. Bastardized a few lines from the show as well.
Author's Notes 3: Finally, the BIGGEST of apologies to the mods and to my recipient amor_remanet for being so incredibly tardy with this.

( Shadows Filled Up With Doubt )

Title: taste of sin.
Author: MF Luder
Pairing: always-a-girl!Dean/Castiel
Keywords: het, sexswap, angst, PWP
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: ~3700
Warnings: references to drug and alcohol abuse
Spoilers: general season 5
Disclaimer: All characters herein belong to Kripke and Co. and the CW.
Archive: My LJ, anywhere else, please let me know
Summary: Love is bittersweet at the end of the world.
Feedback: skin.walker2y5@gmail.com
Author’s Notes: The idea for this struck me one day as I went for a drive (Dean and I have that in common; driving helps us escape). As for where the sexswap came from...I don't question the muses anymore or they get mad at me. Set in 5x4 'verse. HUGE thanks to my two betas who not only agreed to beta het (weird, I know, right?), but were very patient with me as well: rhymephile and siberian_skys. Love you both!
Author's Notes 2: Basically, picture blonde Amber Heard in your mind when you try to picture my Deanna.

( taste of sin )

This isn't a full story despite the fact that it's being posted in a journal entry. It was simply too long for comment fic. Thus, no title, no warning other than slash, maybe heavy PG-13. Enjoy.

Written for daria234 for the 5 Acts meme with this prompt: 2. Two people in a shower or bath, one naked, one clothed.

(Also, you know what I want to know? Why can't I just sit down and write an actual fic like this? 2 hours straight and poof, I'm done. Sigh.)

( Fic )

So, according to my tags, the last time I posted a fic was just over a year ago. The last time I posted a Supernatural fic? 2.5 years ago! Well, hell. I'm going to hope this jump starts the muse for my two SPN WIPs (actually, I had started over the summer and then got distracted again). But it might have to wait until Thanksgiving; school's a bitch (God love grad school). Isn't that always the problem, though?

Whatever, I'm excited I wrote something and it's all thanks to Castiel.

Title: Hi, I’m Icarus; I’m Falling
Author: MF Luder
Pairing: Dean/future!Castiel, future!Dean/future!Castiel referred to
Keywords: slash, dub-con, PWP, angst
Warnings: asphyxiation kink, dubious consent (these are both so small I say only those very weak of fanfic heart should worry), drugs
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: 4,443
Spoilers: 5x04, “The End”
Disclaimer: They belong to the CW and all the producers.
Archive: My LJ, anywhere else, just let me know.
Summary: “You are, though. And you’ll never change. If there’s one thing I learned about you, it’s that. You’re a stubborn bastard. Just try not to take me down with you this time. Not to say it hasn’t been fun. Generally.”
Feedback: skin.walker2y5@gmail.com
Author's Notes: I’d had a 5x4 tag in mind. This is not it. This is merely porn. Carry on. Title from Regina Spektor’s song, Lacrimosa. Because I still can’t come up with titles on my own. Big thank you to my beta, rhymephile who was very quick and very good at fixing my awkward phrasing.

Companion fic to Lacrimosa.

( Hi, I'm Icarus; I'm Falling )

LOL Yes, I totally cheated and used a translation for that. Pffft, I can say like three words in Spanish, five in French, six in Italian, and like ten in Russian. I am no Daniel Jackson, that's for sure.

But anyway, this is just so neat, I had to share. I got some lovely feedback on my One Thing I Can't Tell Him and the person asked if they could translate it into Spanish feeling there was an audience for it, and so I was like, sure! And so...my fic now comes to you ala Espanol here and here. No clue if it's verbatium, but I trust the person and hey, my name and website are attached. I'm happy. *G*

And for my own curiosity...

[Poll #956772]

Once upon a time a little Lucy once said that she would never write a crossover with a crossed pairing. Sometimes, she wonders why she ever thinks about constraining herself, because inevitably, she breaks such rules. This is why she does not make New Year's resolutions.

Title: Slash and burn, return, listen to yourself churn.
Author: MF Luder
Fandom: Heroes/ Supernatural
Pairings: Peter/Dean, hints of Sam/Dean and Peter/Nathan
Keywords: incest, Petrellicest, Wincest, apocalypse, crossover
Rating: NC-17
Spoilers: Nothing specific
Disclaimer: Heroes belongs to Tim Kring and NBC. Supernatural belongs to Kripke and the CW
Prompt: Peter/Dean, Snowfall (at the end of the world)
Summary: "I never imagined it'd end like this. I always thought it'd be some demon show-down. Some kind of final war between good and evil."
Author's Notes: First italic quote from an REM song by the same name. Title taken from the same song. Second italic quote from the movie The Lion in Winter. Originally intended for technosage's Heroes pornathon, but it turned a little too angsty for me to think of it fitting there. Unbetaed, though some cutting done with the advice of siberian_skys.

( Slash and burn, return, listen to yourself churn. )

After a lot of thought and ponderance...here's part four of Ides of the Mothmen.

Part 1 and the HUGE header can be found here

( Part 4 )

Ok, so this is sorta of like a trial run? Not really like that but something. As in, I want to see what kind of reaction this fic gets. If people like it, I'll write more and have all next parts betaed and lengthy like most of my stuff, but in the meantime, it was basically written because lexalot made beautiful art that inspired this bit and who am I to refuse? :-)

Title: Fallen is Babylon the Great
Author: MF Luder
Category: Sam/Dean
Keywords: horror, slash, AU, post apocalypse
Rating: PG-13
Spoilers: None
Disclaimer: They belong to the CW and Kripke.
Archive: Sam/Dean Archive, my LJ, Biani's Slash Archive, Sinful Desire, anywhere else, please just let me know.
Summary: A broken world where there are worse evils than the Demons Hunters used to hunt.
Feedback: Mulder_Loves_Scully_Forever@hotmail.com
Author's Notes: The brothers are not related here. Total inspiration comes from lexalot's gorgeous manip of a hunter Demon!Dean. Title taken from Revelations. Unbetaed.

( Fallen is Babylon the Great )

PS--Anyone know if they're not related...is it still considered Wincest? *is pondering about which comms to post to*