Castielfest Fic: Shadows Filled Up With Doubt

Title: Shadows Filled Up With Doubt
Author: MF Luder
Recipient: amor_remanet
Pairing: Dean/Castiel, Castiel/OFC, intimated Dean/OFC
Keywords: slash, het, apocalypse, character death, established relationship, alternate universe
Rating: R
Word Count: ~11,600
Warnings: torture, drug use, character death
Spoilers: 5x4, “The End”
Disclaimer: All characters herein belong to Kripke and Co. and the CW.
Archive: My LJ, anywhere else, please let me know
Summary: When Dean begins to torture again, Castiel slowly loses pieces of himself.
Author's Notes: Filling this request: 5.04-verse: established Dean/Cas. Remember in "On the Head of A Pin" when Cas says, "I would give anything for you not to have to do this" about Dean torturing Alastair? After losing his Grace, basically-human!Cas picks up the taste for pain meds, but for the most part, he's sober more often than not. When Dean starts torturing again, it takes its toll on Cas too for castielfest. Title taken from Jace Everett's “Bad Things,” another prompt. And umm, I sorta of included two of your DNWs so I'm hoping you'll forgive me since it is a 5x4 fic. D:
Author’s Notes 2: This is a little twist on 5x4 in that there is no past!Dean. Thus, the ending is a tish different. Make of that as you will. Bastardized a few lines from the show as well.
Author's Notes 3: Finally, the BIGGEST of apologies to the mods and to my recipient amor_remanet for being so incredibly tardy with this.

( Shadows Filled Up With Doubt )

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